How our choices are made

It occurred to me this morning that even being conscious itself can create duality. Consciousness as defined in the Merriam-Webster dictionary has the following associations:

1a : the quality or state of being aware especially of something within oneself
b : the state or fact of being conscious of an external object, state, or fact
c : [awareness]; especially : concern for some social or political cause (e.g. The organization aims to raise the political consciousness of teenagers.)
2: the state of being characterized by sensation, emotion, volition, and thought : [mind]
3: the totality of conscious states of an individual
4: the normal state of conscious life regained consciousness
5: the upper level of mental life of which the person is aware as contrasted with unconscious processes

What do we do with this consciousness we aspire to? We can through more expanded and varied perceptions understand better how our choices can affect not only us, but those we are in contact with, as well as even those we are not physically in contact with. The web of life that is woven to and around us is intricate and far reaching. A result of consciousness is to truly "know" this.

However, we still must make choices. Just about every moment of the day we make a choice. Breathing is an unconscious choice most people make, just as eating, walking and sleeping. Our choices during one day are numerous, but how many do we actively engage in "consciously" until this act of engaging consciously is ingrained within us.. a pattern that we align with?

We make our choices according to our levels of consciousness and realisation of the workings of ourself and the life we are connected to. How we view these choices, even when aligned with the "pattern" can be a contradiction. One person may think he is acting in a "conscious way" but he has only made a choice to act based on his level of consciousness and how he decides to interact and to weave or manipulate the web to which he is attached. We all do. Choice cannot be escaped.

Yet, one person's view of having done the "right" thing can be interpreted by another with just as heightened states of consciousness as “wrong." Thus, even with consciousness we can be in duality.

Only "attaining consciousness/awareness" does not solve duality and all our problems. It’s what we then do with this expanded view of our world and how we work together within our tapestry of life with those threads to whom we are connected, that makes the differences. Consciousness alone does not. It’s how we use the knowledge obtained from it that makes the shifts, be it right or wrong, according to perception. It is what drives our actions.

We need to be careful of the emotions that encircle our state of consciousness. Sometimes the more conscious we are, the more it is difficult to be compassionate because we can see through the acts and tricks and the disguises and the excuses. It’s easy to become desensitised to our emotions because of this. It’s key that we make every effort to retain our compassion or if we never had it, learn it.

Compassion and consciousness are what can complement each other and eliminate some of the aspects of duality from the equation, strengthening the web of humanity. For me, one without the other is not enough. I learned this the hard way because I became desensitised and I lost my compassion for a while. It took being conscious of this fact and working on myself, to bring the two back into better sync. It's not perfect, but this is my truth and my choices.